This past week was a tough one for me, but I only realized it after the fact. Isn’t it funny how you rarely realize what is going on in the heart while you’re in the thick of it? To be transparent, when we found out that Brett lost his job, I was packing my bags and preparing to move out of Colorado. You can ask everyone in my life that I was convinced our time in Colorado was coming to an end and I was gearing up for a new adventure to another state or back home. As each interview came and went, so did my plans to move. When an opportunity was presented to us, I tried to figure out what God was doing with our lives. First I was convinced that He was having us move to another state. Then I was sure He wanted us to move back home. As each job opportunity came to a pass, I was knocked off my feet each time. As if God’s plans are predictable? I knew better, but again, it was my way of trying to control the situation, to make plans and be prepared for any and every possible outcome. Now, I am tired. I was so mentally and physically tired this past week. Maybe it was because I feel like we are on a timeline and we still have no answers. Whatever the reason, I inched my way closer to giving up.
Giving up isn’t a bad thing, I would argue that it is the right thing. I don’t know how it is for you but when I give up, I’m giving up my attempt to be in control of the situation. It is in those times when God is able to take over without me kicking and screaming. It takes me such a looonnng time to get to that point, and it is usually a painful process, but it is always a win-win situation for me.
I have finally come to a point where I am ok with staying in Colorado and finally making Colorado our home. Is this whole job loss a process to get me to accept that Brett and I are supposed to stay in Colorado for awhile? To finally allow ourselves to put down roots here? If so, God has a funny sense of humor. I keep on thinking to myself, “I have learned so much about myself and God that I can’t possibly have anything else to learn!” Wrong. Very wrong. Once again I am reminded that we are truly sheep in need of The good Shepard.
On Monday we decided to be spontaneous. We needed a mountain getaway. One of the beautiful things about Colorado is that you are never too far from snow and mountains. We took a short trip up to Keystone and Breckenridge to visit some of our favorite places. Keystone holds a special place in our hearts. About 2 years ago Brett took me to Keystone mountain and proposed on our favorite ski run. We stayed in a Keystone condo, a place his family frequentlly stayed at when they went skiing. During our quick getaway we revisited those same spots.
It was one of the first big snows in Keystone so I was eager to get my camera out to get some great shots of the naked aspens surrounded by some fresh snow. While we were there we stopped by downtown Frisco and ate at our favorite breakfast spot, Butterhorn bakery. If you ever choose to visit Keystone, make sure to stop at the bakery. Their skillets plates are my favorite! They have a pretty mean cinnamon roll too.
I hope everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving holiday and are enjoying the Christmas season!